Feeling Great and Living With Not Knowing

The procedure went really well last week.  Well it's actually hard to know exactly what happened because one minute I was asked if I wanted another blanket and said yes...and my next memory was someone saying welcome back.  I was now in a different room on a different bed.

Things I am thankful for:

• my chauffeur and loving husband Tim
• being totally unconscious during the procedure
• not feeling like I wanted to puke my guts out as the anesthesia was wearing off
• knowing that my girlfriend was as our home  - tracking down Eli and making dinner so we didn't have to even think about it
• knowing I'd be able to eat and drink water after 17 hours - making Eli cinnamon toast in the morning and smelling coffee sent my brain into overdrive and all I could think about was oh, if I could only have a little
• know sure how to spell it, but lanicane - the pre-shot that injects a numbing agent before they stick in the big IV needle - and so grateful that my veins didn't get screwy like the last couple of times and I didn't feel a thing, but the extra squirting blood did make me laugh.
• amazing meatball soup made with love by Kathy
• wonderful friends checking in
• my wonderful sister who took, and still has Eli, for 4 full days - he's having a great time with his cousins running around and I'm absolutely loving having the house pretty much to myself. With Tim climing Baker this weekend - I had two full days and nights to myself. I don't even remember when that happened last, and I loved it.  And I didn't get on my computer once.
• other than feeling like a big cramp for a while - feeling so much better than I anticipated.
• the nurse telling me in advance that it would be a good week before we found out any pathology results.  Just knowing that helps - and she also offered that in her opinion the longer it takes to hear the better and it often sends better news.  I'll take that - true or not, because I know that within 24 hours of my first biopsy it was cancer.

So that's the dot by dot scoop.

Now we're getting ready for our RV adventure - I can hardly wait.

Comments

[Karl Bischoff]

Hey Michelle... so sorry to hear you had to re-enter that world again. Hope all turns out well... let's hope for a LONG wait for results!
KB

[Sherri Jo]

Catching up on your stories and am so sorry you are dealing with all these tests and procedures. Having cancer leaves us with an "edge," as you described, that makes every encounter with medicine bigger than big. I hope with all my might that there are no cancer cells present and that this is all an inconvenience simply caused by the Tamoxifen. If it's any consulation, I had my uterus removed several years ago and haven't missed it one bit. I still have my ovaries and am sad I will have to give them up in the next few months. While I haven't missed the uterus, I think I will miss my hormones tremendously. Oh well... mother nature was going to take them in another year or two anyway.

I'll be waiting to hear your results.