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My Magnificent Self

I was updating my goals this morning and found this short essay called "My Magnificent Self" that I wrote a couple years ago.  Even though it wasn't on my "to do" list this morning I felt compelled to edit and share it.  Perhaps the next time you look in a mirror you'll notice a shift of perception.

My Magnificent Self

by Michele Corey

My magnificent self is an expression of my inner self and spirit; the spirited and loving self that shows up every day regardless of what is happening on the outside and fills me with love, faith and hope and serves as my guiding light.

It’s the self I wanted to be for so long and yet some how I didn’t feel fully deserving and worthy of being. Often I only felt it in fleeting glimpses, but some how those glimpses were enough to keep me hopeful yet not enough to really feed and nurture me or recognize my full magnificence.

My inner magnificence waited close to 40 years, a long time to connect with my soul and be fully present with the woman I see as I gaze into the mirror generally while performing my daily ritual of gently spreading lotion on my face and around my eyes.

I used to hope the lotion was really a magical like they state on the label and would truly stop that reflection I saw each day from changing, wrinkling, becoming old before it’s time and would restore my own fountain of youth and a time of all being possible. It was easy to control the gray hairs I saw, but that face…I really had no control as age, earth and gravity continued their course. No matter which lotion I used or how much I spent there really wasn’t much difference.

Lighten Your Load

Lighten your load is the message that is ringing loud and clear.  January was to be a month in which I moved forward on my home based business plan I put into place, two outstanding client projects and three new clients.

Unfortunately Eli developed sleep apnea and multiple infections and on December 28 we both started steroids (that he hated and getting them consumed is a whole other story) so he could breath better during the day and night and scheduled to have his adenoids and tonsils removed on January 17th.  Any time you put the words children and surgery together it is scary for both the child, he's 3.5 and his mom and dad.

Surgery is suppose to be day surgery and it turned into three full days and two nights at Children's Hospital in Seattle. Recovery is still in progress as we measure Eli's urine (he's been borderline dehydrated and every oz counts) and monitor the very minimal food intake(he's lost 4 lbs over the past month and is quite emaciated looking) and make it through yet another sleepless night for the three of us - Eli, mom and dad.

Thankfully I was able to keep my coaching call today with my coach and it reminded me that my focus is on my family first and the business will still be there.  It helped this perfectionist business woman acknowledge that it is okay to have multiple calls be canceled and / or rescheduled to some other time, client projects that haven't moved one step forward and new clients waiting to start.  Eli is what is most important in my life and part of my bigger vision and the legacy I want to leave in this world.

It's about letting go of what I thought was true and acknowledging what is the current reality.

I pulled a card from the Debbie Ford, The Best Year of Your Life and got...Lighten Your Load.  How darn appropriate.  Here's what it has to say...

It's difficult to clearly see what needs to be done when your environment is burdened with half-completed projects, unfinished to-do lists, old files, clothes that don't fit, and equipment that no longer works or serves any purpose.

Remember, you're committed to creating the best year of your life -a year that completely surpasses anything you've known before! So get ready to clean out the old and make room for the new.

Here's to you figuring out how to refocus on what is most important in your life and being willing to lighten your load.

Regards,

Michele Corey, writing for Knee Deep:  A dose on insight from your not always average home based business and Internet mom and WordStreamz: Real Estate Blog Marketing.